thesurvivor♥

Sunday, May 31, 2009 11:08 pm

You must be crazy to believe me,
and I must be crazy to believe you.
How I wished it never happened.

I'm having an attitude problem right now.
Better not provoke me.

This is freaking bored.
Pubo.
Zzzzz.
And is freaking hot!
I've bathed twice today already,
please don't make it a third later.

Saturday, May 30, 2009 10:28 pm

Microscopic life without the details

As my vision gets narrower,
I realised I can't fit everyone into my life,
perhaps try abandoning them under my memories.
I could no longer differentiate the importance of each individual in my life,
'cos they do change.

The change of priority I am to them.
So, why, should I still live in the past where every of us were that important to one another?
I should update myself on that.
Noted.

Oh wait, why am I even touching on that?
Ew, I'm side tracking.
Anyway, I've been really buzzed up with school projects.

Those photos were taken at around 9plus, on a Friday (yesterday).
Some of us stayed back till 9 to build a class model aka our site & surroundings @ Chinatown.
Our plan was having 2 groups to work on the stretch of buildings along 1 street.
So, my group and another group did the shophouses (the longer one).
Another group did the mosque (the lower and smaller one).
And the base was done by another group.
Satisfaction. I love model-making ~~hence my it ranked 3rd in my choices made~~.

Notice that there's a deep depression in the base.
That's our site, where we will needa place our massing model into it for our coming critique.
We're gonna have 2 basements with 4 storeys above.

Individual works to-be-done by Monday
1. Mindmap
2. Design Idea Write up
3. Brief Analysis Bubble Diagram
4. Sketch/ Montage/ Collage/ Painting/ Sculpture
5. Local Site Response

TODAY:
I 'backpacked' down to site, but seeing that it was drizzling, we headed to NLB instead.
From 1030 to 1530.
Then we went down to site since it was sunny. :D
Ate at Maxwell Center.
Bought sweet potatoes back home for mum too. Yummy.
Total shagged out in the bus, unglam. D':

What if, I tell you that I'm neutral.

P.S: I'M ATTENDING A PRINCESS PARTY NEXT WEEK! WOOHOO
But, the dress code: to wear a dress. -.-

Wednesday, May 27, 2009 11:02 pm

Feel with heart

Despite it being a virtual connection,
I could still feel it.

It's so strong a connection,
that gives me the strength.
Thanks for the ensuring just now.
It got me thinking and ensuring myself once again.

And well, I just got to know my stand in the cohort of architecture.
I should work smarter to get my way higher up than before.

Perform..
with altitude.

Monday, May 25, 2009 10:12 pm

I was never in the plan

Right,
Submission cum presentation have come to a comma,
moving on to individual before it marks to an end to this diploma.

I guess I'll be pretty much be tied down by my projects.
Oh, I might be participating in some other competitions on my part as well.
Perhaps furniture design competition.

I had enough of having to plan/ socialize with humans,
especially when we've talked about it, and made a mark on our calendar (perhaps for me),
and then, you happen to know that you were never a part in their plan.
Doesn't that make you feel unimportant/ neglected/ like an outcast?

That's what I'm feeling right now.
Great.
Thanks for being so enthusiastic about our plan then,
and ruining it by allowing me to discover by myself.
DON'T COME APOLOGISING TO ME ~~AGAIN~~.
I really hate myself for treating you so well.
Come to think of it, I think it was a waste of money..
I should have just spent them on my family instead of yours.

Oh well, I think I'd prefer a life by myself living a-lone,
then to face up to people's criticism and hypocrisy.
Call me an avoider.

Ah, I'm really tired today.
Especially when I was watching this group's video that made all of us dizzy from its camera movements.
After which, I had a meeting with solar team.
And I headed to the library for some research.. where I met cookie monster.
Oh yes, I actually helped this female to get the book that she was searching via the library desktop. 'Cos I borrowed that book before, and saw it the day before I went. :D
Hahahahaha what a coincidence.
This shows that I look out for books attentively.
~~One more thing, it seems that I'm not afraid of cookie monster anymore!~~ :D
Opps, better not let monster read this.

Saturday, May 23, 2009 8:17 pm

被遺忘的時光

Well-spent day.

Morning jog.
Work @ Studio.
Hair-cut.
Library.
Work @ Home.

My dad has this number-of-steps counting device and lent it to me for the jog.
I took ~2120 number of steps for 2 rounds.
As usual, jogged at 6am and breakfast after that.

Then, I took a bath, napped and headed for studio.
Monday's submission and presentation already. :(
Anyway thanks to Dennis who came today just to open the studio for us! :D
Stayed from 10.30 to 5.30pm.
Tuned in to YouTube for some entertainment as usual,
and reminisced songs from Tension & 5566!
But I still prefer 被遺忘的時光 - 蔡琴. LOL. :X
Blasted it in my studio man! Lecturers like it, 'cos it's from their era. HAHA

After the studio was closed, my team discussed about Spinovex project.
Ah, we needa present our ideas to Ms Teoh on Monday.
Luckily I sketched something on the train while on my way to school. Lalala :D
We only managed to get something started today. :(
So I went to the library and borrowed 3 thick&heavy books.
With the heavy books in hand, I made my way to the hair salon to get some trimming done.
I counted my cash in the library to make sure I don't embarrass myself but when I sat down on the salon chair, I forgot if I had enough.
I was afraid that I might not have enough cash on me, so I decided to have a backup plan- mum.
Apparently, she hesitated but agreed to 'save' me.
My mum was traveling at a turtle speed man. It took around 10 minutes or so to cut my hair, but she wasn't there yet.
Thank god I had enough cash. Lol.

Hmmmmm, I might be highlighting my hair prolly next week. >.<

Ohman, this weekend is fully packed.
Tomorrow is another day out for project discussionnnn with Ailen. Boohoo.

Alright, time to get some work going! GO GO GO!
Monday marks the end of group projects.
Monday starts the individual project.
Tuesday starts the maths&puzzle presentation.
Wednesday starts the second meeting for Spinovex Project.
Friday is a date out with hornybuddy. :D

Gonna be a week of induced sleep. :/
~~p.s: I NEED TENNIS PHOTOS! :X~~

Wednesday, May 20, 2009 9:54 pm

Charlie the Unicorn

GO WATCH!

Monday, May 18, 2009 10:35 pm

Forsaken

You know what?
I feel abandoned somehow.

This feeling is ejecting misery.
I want nobody, nobody but you.

Feeling lousy. :(

Sunday, May 17, 2009 3:38 am

Eventful marathon

Meeting at 9am to 11plus
Went Jurong Point for lunch + dessert + shopping ('cos of someone), till 5plus
Met up again for arcade + midnight movie.
(Oh yes, I was feeling totally unwell in the earlier part of the day, but felt better after I went home)

I thought I was pangseh-ed for the movie when I was there first. And they were either not answering their calls or not replying their smses. Then D was still in his sleep when he answered his call.
When A arrived, we played photohunt.
After B arrived, we played daytona.
And when C arrived, we played daytona and para para.
Omg, I can't believe I played the para para dance machine just now. (is really addicted)

Oh yes, instead of watching the show at 2240, we had to watch 2350, thanks to someone.
After the show, we went to nearby 24/7 coffee shop.
And so here I am, blogging at such hour for the whole chain of events.

Frankly speaking, I'd laugh out loud whenever I'm with them 'cos of some people who tend to look funny to me, be it their actions/ things they say. LOLOLOLOL.
And I could actually laugh till I go numb most of the time.. -.-
But a pity is that, I seldom get to meet up with them.

I found my tennis prince. :D

Ah, what a special day.
16 may.

Time for bed, good night.

/EDIT
And omg, I bought 4-D. HAHA :X

Friday, May 15, 2009 10:19 pm

Re-discover Chinatown

I'm proud to say that I've walked through 5-6 streets of Chinatown alone on a Friday.
I set off at 7plus and reached say, 8.30am.
I felt like a backpacker apart from yesterday's.
I stood along a HDB corridor, sketching/ snapping photos for couple of hours.
And when I stretched my arms, I saw this cleaner, from the corner of my eye, peeping at my work from behind. On top of that, he was just standing quietly behind me for several minutes. -.-
To be frank, I was shocked on the inside and wondered what he's gonna do next.

Arnold's 11plus became 1plus.
And by the time he reached, I've already walked 5-6 streets of Chinatown and repeatedly walked a few streets as well, until my camera went dead on me. :(
That situation put me to a dead spot.

After Arnold reached, we walked through the same streets that I've walked.
Then, he went for a haircut at Monsoon Academy. ($5- cut by student)
Went URA to refresh our work/ slack.
It was drizzling and when we headed back to snap another photo to end off the day, at around 5plus. (Cool whole 9 hours spent at Chinatown)

At a certain point of time, I had a really bad stomach ache, and after I got home, I kept getting the runs. I guess it must have got to do with my meals.
I had noodles with sliced meat and a cup of papaya + watermelon juice. I guess is the juice :/
Then I ordered Bandung while waiting for Arnold. (I tasted a heavy mix of coconut milk)
When Arnold was having his lunch, I ordered carrot cake with chilli.

Oh, and I saw a big bad wolf today.
~~Really bad. Aww.~~

Tuesday, May 12, 2009 10:46 pm

I learn flower appreciation

Personally speaking, I don't detest flowers, neither do I like flowers.
They are neutral to me.

But of course, I would choose not to have flowers in my possession.
1. Waste of money
2. I've no use for it
3. Waste of space
4. Promotes dengue

(The above is just a digression~ Only one person understands what I'm talking about)
Someone told me something about flowers today.
I was amazed at the description she gave me. -.-
Dangerous period.

路上的野花，你不要采。

Presentation's done and over!
We did well overall I guess, just that we exceeded the time given. Opps.
Good job good job. :D
Up next, site analysis @ Chinatown

Mosque again.. D:

And I attended my bro's graduation at NP right after my presentation,
with my family and grandparents. :D
ANG JIN HUI! YOU'RE MY IDOL MAN! HAHAHA
WAH SEH. :D
Double Lee Kuan Yew Award (in secondary and polytechnic level)
and lots of other achievements.
But it's already too late for me to achieve that kinda standard now. :(

Ah, sleepyhead.
Time to hit the bed. :D
Good night!

Monday, May 11, 2009 9:32 pm

It's amazing

OMG! TAMMY & VICTOR WON THE AMAZING RACE! :DDD
They are my favourite team!
And I've been rooting up for them!
Did you know that in my guess for the previous race came true too?
Nick & Starr Spangler! :X

Is either I can foresee the future.
Or my guesses will come true.

If only I've the will,
I won't be living my life this way.
So, that's just a coincidental, again.

Anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NICK SPANGLER!
My gorgeous man. :D
He's the man!
Miles of flying kisses to you! :X
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

*emo* (I want a guy like him too! >.<)

Ah, back to script rehearsal.
Legs damn pain, head damn pain.
Stupid auditorium, spent my half day in it today.
Tomorrow's gonna be the same again. :(

Sunday, May 10, 2009 10:32 pm

Red and raw

That burning sensation is reducing me,
bit by bit.

On the surface that you see of me,
is the raw pain which welcomes my mornings.

If you ask me why, I've many answers and reasons for it,
but they might not be the one.
Unless you truly experience it,
only then will you feel how I feel.

That, is unexplainable.

Ah, early sleep welcomes me today.
Good night.

3:27 pm

Hours of Leisure

Baby Elyssa is not coming back anymore. :(
She has moved in to a condo.
And that's a 2-week-old news. :X

Anyway, I'm finally done with group journal,
and now some reading time for myself.
Yayness. :D

Yesterday, I received a couple of messages.
You're living well there.
I'm living well here.
And is either I stay or I leave Singapore.
It's a matter of money, not distance.
It's a matter of a career, not love.
It's a matter of my future, not ...

I think it's all too early to justify now.
God, allow me to wait.

Oh, rest time.

Friday, May 08, 2009 4:20 pm

yes, i heard you loud and clear

Submission is over by now, and I've already submitted my group's much earlier on just now.
Thank god, I can feel a slight breeze now.

And there's another submission on Monday, the journal, models, and slide handouts.
We actually did a rather animated presentation, and E-model.
Now, we are just gonna compile our journal and await for Monday.

After the submission, half of us will be presenting in an auditorium. I guess all of us will have to attend it = ~80 students and lecturers. The juniors better not be attending it, or I'll go, O.O!!

Then, another half of us will be presenting on Tuesday.

Wednesday
1. Site Visit for analysis, another group work.
2. Interview

Saturday
Meeting

Oh, and I'll be involved in a Solar Panel Project with 3 EEE students, and 2 other DARCH friends. :D
It starts the week after this, and ends around next February.
We're told that we'll be doing everything by ourselves, including building. :/
This reminds me of Bob the Builder.

Hope it's fun. Lol. :D
Beside the external project, I might be applying for SAT, with moumoumou! :D

NUS ah! Huat ah!

I love long list of schedules!
I love keeping myself busy,
only then I can feel my importance here.

Sunday, May 03, 2009 2:46 pm

In your own words, define contemplation.

What is contemplation to you?
Where do you find it?

For me, I realise that I contemplate better when I'm at constant with my surroundings inconstant.
It reminds me of Time, like I've been sucked into a time-machine.
It makes me wonder when will the inconstancy around me stop.
In any case, I focus well, and I read better.
On the train, and on the bus.

Perhaps 'cos reading takes just the mind of one person, that can't be shared with another.
Even if you're reading with someone else, the intake is somewhat different.
The thinking one has while reading, you can't make it up/ you have no idea what lies in the thinking.

Aside with these reflections I had while on the bus back home, I have been kinda busy lately; of course with my group project. It has been scheduled to submit next Friday, 3- 4pm.
Oh well, I do hope that my group does well for it, with the fact that we somehow share the same mindset/ target.

Two words for my group: Rubber band.
Think about the aspects of rubber band.
One of it is that, it can be stretched.
I'll leave it to you guys to think beyond this aspect. :D

Besides project, I've been meeting up with friends as well. :D
I love my friends! :D
I'm grateful!

On Friday, I met up with Anorld for work, and went off to meet Ivan & Serene to get a present for EK!

Today, I went town with my parents.
1. Muji @ Paragon (I love the stuffs there, comfy/innovative!)
2. Salted Fish Fried Rice & XO Durian Chee Cheong Fan at Killiney Road.

As for the update of my health condition,
Ah, I had a flu for past couple of weeks.
And I'm nursing on my sore throat/ cough now.
I feel that I might have a slight fever soon after,
'cos my head and eyes are experiencing a slight fiery.

Yeah, reprimand me for eating heaty junks, I don't care! :D
I'm gonna lead my life the happy way,
I'll enjoy every single day of my life, as if there's no tomorrow.