thesurvivor♥

Friday, November 30, 2007 9:49 pm

Damn happening man.
Recently.

2 in Ubin &
1 in Lot1.

Being with me,
good & free show to watch-
guaranteed.

It got them laughing three days through,
and about the incident at lot1 just now.

Wanna know more,
ask me lo.
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I broke down into tears once again,
before me were them,
asking me what's the matter.
I just shook my head and drying up my tears,
while they continued talking.

If not for the disorganized schedule you had for us,
if not for the improper instructions given to us,
we would not be in this state,
some not knowing what to do, and
some got to know what's going on.

That, alone, has given me problems,
much say this.
I've already planned out everything before i left,
but something which i'd never foresee has happened,
leaving me in sucha deepshit.

One day has been wasted,
do you know that?
Passion?
You got me pondered.

And I find it hard to interact with them.

Sunday, November 25, 2007 9:49 pm

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start.

At the beginning,

Dedication to them in 2004; a junior with gratitude,
now in 2007; a senior with gratitude.

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

Saturday, November 24, 2007 3:50 pm

Eyeing over them for almost half a year..
Nobody bought for me..
Size 5.

I can't wear slippers, without the stupid strap behind, to school.

And i'm gonna get more novels to indulge in,
during my travel time.
Simply peaceful to have you by my side,
i'd choose you over anything else, for the moment.

From borders/ MPH/ Kinokuniya/ Pageone/ Popular/ Times/ Times Newslink
What else did i miss?

Perhaps i should get a book from each store..
Times Newslink has been newly discovered by me recently, at Changi.
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China's overtaking the world,
with technology's overtaking our lives.

All goods from China. Z.

X-off.
Bitch, X-er.
Whatever.
You know i've been waiting.

Really really pissed,
and to stand up with the humidity makes me further pissed.
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And i'm so not gonna listen,
i wonder if you're helping,
or pushing me down.
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I actually see 'T' as '1'...
In near future of my architecture pursue,
what's going to happen?

Friday, November 23, 2007 2:45 pm

Do you think by blocking me, things would solve?
Just because you didn't want me to talk to him?
In actual fact, you've got it wrong.
Well, is pointless to explain all to you, right?

To you, i've become your worst nightmare,
someone so scary,
that you wouldn't even believe what she says.

And go on,
get obssessed.
And say that you've been faithful to her,
while you had girlfriends, with her in your mind.
Sigh..

~~Just tear me down.~~
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And i didn't know i made your life miserable that you left me.
I think is rather the other way round.
The guilt you carry is just not more than my loss.

I doubt you're even guilty.
If not, it wouldn't even happen.
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That isn't an incest for goodness sake.
Get that clear.
Define incest before you point at me.
That's just the bloody wrong word to use.

I told you that i was leaving,
and you believed.
I asked if i were to lie to you,
how will you feel.
You said you'll be very happy,
happy that i'm not leaving you.
But in actual fact,
i've never left you,
just there beside you.
No matter where we are,
we are just a distance away from a call.

我想我没有错怪了什么.
虽然你不说,
或许错在我太晚我才懂爱了你太多.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007 8:36 pm

Evocable Bigtime ~~CrimeSin~~MISTAKE

I know i know i know.
But what had happened has happened.

Knowing the things i shouldn't know is really torturous,
perhaps for me.

My hair stands.
My eyes tear.
Evocable as it is.

The ambiguous status that sparkled off.
Yet seemingly, it gives me something,
that unexpected return God gave me..

Two of a different person,
of different mindset,
yet of the same blood.

It's just that similarity that contradicts.

Not now yet.
Soon.
Let's wait a while more, before we could proceed.
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3 pighead in a stick, and says 'Porkballs'.
That, is on a print tee.

I thought i could finish before time,
yet disaster ruined my plans.
Back to a dot,
before
to a line, and
finally to a plane.

My submission is before everyone else.
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是我想太多, 你总这样说.
但你却没有真的心疼我.
是我想太多, 我也这样说.
这是唯一能安慰我的理由.

Sunday, November 18, 2007 8:25 pm

You're one hard nut.
~~I swwwweaaar to conquer you.~~

I also want to be what you want me to be(:
Thanks for acknowledging me,
Though you won't be of any help, i think..
I shall make it out of my own, i think..

Soon.

Avoidance won't help, yet you did so..

Thanks for the talk,
for the concern,
for the acknowledgement.
We're not just friends(:

她霸占了你的心中,
属于我的角落.
所以你说, 我们, 不是你和我..

Saturday, November 17, 2007 11:34 pm

I knew it.
Why am i treated the different way?
Why like that?!
Z..
~~Could you help me out with it?~~
~~I really wish you could.~~

你笑着说, '她'是朋友,
但你眼中太温柔.
我的不安, 那么沉重,
只有你不懂...

8:00 pm

PULAU UBIN

The mango pudding story.
Hur hur.

left: you.
right: malaysia ship. *press the 'fast forward' icon, to fast forward* -.-

Wonderful sleep throughout(:
BUSRIDES = HIBERNATION FOR REAL, PEOPLE!
Started off with a fare of $7+ and ended up $3+.
From bp to bugis, to changi.. Slept throughout.
From tampines to cck.. 2hour+ busride. Slept throughout.

Shiokkelaka
until my butt, and my legs so suan~

BIRTHDAY "PAR-TAY"
@ KAP

Hamburglarrrr &
The kiddy games.

My 17th birthday ):
My wish.. was to...

We moved out of the room,
and children got to draw lots for christmas presents.

HAPPY 2nd BIRTHDAY RAYDEN~

Growing fat, and fatter?
KFC for lunch, MAC for dinner T.T

Friday, November 16, 2007 1:08 am

Nothing's gonna subdue my love for you.
Wonder why it's getting ... these few days.
~~Maybe because of that bah.~~

When will it be...?
Let me know real soon(:
Ehhh, i'm sorta yearning for the time with you.
Staying low in every moment,
just to be with you.

God, this can't be it.
It's just so impossible.

Why do we never know what we've got till it's gone?
How could I carry on?
The day you went away..
'Cos I've been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day,
the day you went away...

Thursday, November 15, 2007 7:02 pm

Time to take things easy.

We're glad you're fine,
despite staying after nine.
Things will be put in place,
right before your face.
So, not to worry
but to get on.

JIAYOU DARCH!
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Notice me.

Snowball effect of late nights& few hours of sleep.
Been yawning and tearing non-stop.
I'm just fortunate to get few hours of sleep.
Talk about project?
Not that easy.
And in no time,
i might just BOOM,
drop dead asleep,
on the glass table.

My lips turn drier as days go by.
Dehydration?
But i drunk myself with water.

SEMESTER 2:
We work at our computer every single second except for
traveling, bathing, and sleeping.

Just year one,
we're experiencing as though we're in year three.
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I can't hear the bells.
I can't share the joy
'cos i've yet to get my boy.

She's just a substitute,
for all i care.
You'll never get to her
'cos is not your privilege to.

Once they got what they want,
they don't mind losing them.
They go for new, abandon the old.

It's that hard to gain my approval and trust now.

2:44 am

I'M NOT A PAEDOPHILE!

Some crazy people are gonna catch me down for a lame song and dance,
entitled: "When the cold wind blows"

In the early morning run,
with a backpack on my back,
with an aching in my heart,
blaaah blah blaaah..

Rangers' callout.
The 'C' Gang, the Sea Gang.
See what sea, Seacow, Seahorse, Seagull, and Seashell.
Blue Ranger, Colourless Ranger, Pink Ranger, Purple Ranger, and Yellow Ranger.

Figure out why.
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What have i got in me again?
Yea yea.
I know you love me,
but i don't.
Sorry, and please leave me,
deaaaar COLD.
Get someone else(:

Yes, i'm not only 'abstract' yet also, a fan of bush,
'cos i beat around the bush, but not at the bush.
Shoot me down.

Friends of the outside world,
do understand that i'm undergoing a final year ONE project,
thus won't be really free till Jan4 i guess.
BUT, you can try, provided i've the urge and need to take a breather.

Dark circles are IN now!
*Mr chieu actualy said the above..*
Oh yes, PIMPLES TOO.
Terms and conditions apply.
For architectural students..

D: !Gnohaijeel
lvoeyuo,nto?
You waitforher,
iwaitfor you.
Viciouscycle.

And we were letting go of something special,
Something we'll never have again.
I know, I guess I really really know..

Wednesday, November 14, 2007 12:26 am

Crazy over heels.

I said i was thirsty, yet lazy to walk to the kitchen.
So i said, fish tank is much nearer to me.
Furthermore, there's food!
"Seaweed" and fish.

Crazy over you.

I said i will wait.
To think waiting is sucha blissful possession,
to think not meeting up is sucha torture,
you just make me want more.
More of you,
everything of you,
and from you.

Look at me.
That alone, means alot.

They ask me what I see in you.
I smile,
look down,
and said nothing,
because i don't want them to fall in love with you too.

I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces.

~~February the twentieth.~~
July the eighth.
4months16days.
4x4=16.
The perfect square.

Oh bring back, bring back, bring back my boyfriend to me, to me.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007 10:57 pm

This is using a software called AutoViz 2007, under AutoDesk, aka AutoCad bah.

This piece of shit was done last night.

This was just an anyhow shit, without floor slab.

Thus, i redo-ed everything..
This piece of work is done today!

A much completed one, with floor slab.
My EXTERIOR LOOK OF THE HOUSE! -.-
To be Cont'd..
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On the other hand,
i wanna get those tees ):
$20 for each, $30 for two.
Those cute print tees.
Maybe one day, i wanna invest in those line.
Customized/ handdrawn tees ((:

'Cos i've been helping out in drawings.
This, that, those, allll.
Not professional though.
BOO.

I'll be waiting for you, right here.
Call me soon.
Don't hold me up.
'Cos i might let you down.
Oh mr sexy legs,
you got me so tied down
that i want you so much now.
Now, smack that, dude.

Well hey,
So much I need to say,
Been lonely since the day,
The day you went away.
So sad but true.
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day,
The day you went away.

6:27 pm

And oh,
did i mention,
ONE sheet of A1 printing costs $15?
Imagine we needa print FOUR sheets of that = $60/-
And that obviously excludes the materials for the model, and drawing kits, etc.
Submission of that FOUR A1 boards + (1: 100) MODEL + DESIGN PROCESS in A3 file
after 2008.. T.T

Coming years to see upon our submission too.
Goodness. Or
Godness.

Good luck and happy holiday for me eh?
2 weeks break into our project.

Aside from project and stuffs,
one sad point by lecturers,
we won't have much time to socialize..
'Cos we'll be so busy socializing with our drawings, models and stuffs ):

HAPPY CHRISTMAS & MERRY NEW YEAR TO ME IN ADVANCE!
And i hope for a change in my life.
Change is a constant.

And yea, i'll find time for you alright.
We'll be fine, just fine.
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On a lighter note,
mum said the baby looks like me.
Aww..
If i were to say something..
Will they believe me?
This secret that can't hold long.

"You sat down on the carousel, had a drink, watched the sun go down, had sex..."

Did I lose my love to someone better?
And does she love you like I do?
I do, you know I really really do.

Monday, November 12, 2007 11:56 pm

Submitted 2 A1 presentation board drafts.
Things are getting complicated, and tedious for us.
Coming days are goner for me,
perhaps till next year 4 Jan.

Done for macro,
now for micro.
Ain't gonna enjoy my festivals/ reunion/ ~~patchup):~~.

Dreadful ah...
The guys and the girls were clearly divided.
Girls on Chieu's side,
while guys on YY's side.

Chieu's side: discussing about their project, asking questions, etc.
YY's side: how stressed they were, how inconvenient sp is to them, etc.
I didn't realised till lecturers saw the distinct line.

See how the guys think,
and the girls think,
now.

P.S: Though we have NO EXAMS, doesn't mean we're slackers.
Instead, we have "exams" everyday.
Every single day is our judgement day.
Or, you can say we can be very free,
yet can have no breathe-taking moments.

On a harsher note from them,
we are in architecture,
an expensive course it is.
A license to be a certified architect takes up 10 over years?
10 over years of torture,
unknown years of fortune.

At University level,
Architecture holds the same level as law, medicine, etc.

What crap am i typing now?
Bomg. Wtb.

Well I wonder could it be,
When I was dreaming about you baby,
You were dreaming of me.
Call me crazy, call me blind.
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time.

Sunday, November 11, 2007 10:05 pm

我真的不干心。
我真的看不下去了。。。
我的心好想停止搏斗。
能够到这里，已经足够了。。

你的心变得好快，
那多年的她不是解口。
而是，你的野心。。。

Sorry, i'm not drunk.
I'm sober,
though i really feel rather groggy, and pain here and there.

But by knowing the facts,
i swear i'd rather be drunk..
or even,
erase my everything and cease my existance,
from this complicated world.

I think,
i needa do something.
Something...

Oh pretty boy
Say you love me too

8:17 pm

Me&the.. octopus?

I watched spongebob!
11.30am, and i was awake!

Then i received this octopus, -.-
from my dad.
Like wth? Lol.
It's from Ikea, and i've no idea why my mum told me that i wanted it.
LOL?
Okay la, i wanted like almost ALL the softies i see on the magazines.
Why didn't you guys bought the glove puppets, the heart-shaped cushion?!
And now, i've to make a personal trip down. ><

Didn't use the computer till around mid-noon :D
Did some sketching for my project.
Quite happy about it :D
I'm sucha good girl.
~~Praise me.~~

Then then, done with my poster for cssp :D
More or less done with my current stuffs.
GREATNESS~
Aww, that means i'll be less busy ):
Bad. -.-
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Dinner's a take-away for me, from my grandparents' house.
The chicken wine tasted heavy with excessive wine i guess.
I'm like half-drunk?
My mind feels weird.
Boo.
Ouch ouch ):

1:22 am

http://criticalthinkers.wordpress.com/2007/11/09/we-are-too-controlled-by-technology/#comments

PLEASE HELP TO COMMENT AND CIRCULATE! :D

This is my group project aka PW? 0.0
It's my elective module, Critical Reasoning Skills (CRS)
This website is specially made for an online discussion platform.
And it's now opened to public for comments,
to serve as reference for the respective groups.

SOOOOOOO, MY GROUP TOPIC IS:
WE ARE CONTROLLED BY TECHNOLOGY.

How to comment?
(You can fake any name, as you like. So long the content we need is there!)

STATE YOUR STAND.
SUPPORTING DETAILS TO YOUR STAND.
CONCLUSION.

It has low comments as we informed our lecturer late,
and she refused to post it up during our e-learning week!
WTH.
We were to inform our class rep on monday,
i forgot (and other groupmates too i suppose),
then i got to know the link like 2 days later?
And i saw no sight of my group topic,
thus i emailed her.
If not for the unefficient spreading of the link..
i'd not be here publicizing. SYSTEM SUCKS and UNFAIR.
3rd day of the week, and i had to refresh the page for 4 days,
just to see if our topic was posted.
And, not even a reply saying that our topic will not be posted up due to our late inform was told!

And the frustrating thing was,
everyone of us had to post at least 5 comments for any topic,
and that would be our attendance for the week.
Of course, each topic would be 'flooding' with comments.
Yet, ours was not up.
So after e-learning week, during our class, we told her to post it up.
SIGH.

GREAT THANKS! (:

Saturday, November 10, 2007 7:39 pm

Enlightened. Word of my day.

I wanna go Ikea.
Anyone?

I wanna get those small and cute accessories.
Perhaps to give away? :D
And i want that heart-shaped cushion, and glove puppets too.
Just so awesomely cute ><

Christmas's round the corner, so is your day.
The spirit gets high again.
Wonder if i can.
Forget you not.(:

Christmas made me feel the love around.
And that left me to think about my loved ones.
The atmosphere is just so mushy on the outside yet warmth in its inner.
There sure to have more couples on this festival..
Chances to make a confession,
chances to make a patch up,
chances for marriage,
a blessing day it'll be.
Yet chances to break up too.

What i can do but to spread the love.
Boo.
bmy loves not barney;
the purple dinosaur! ><

iwyiwyiwyiwyiwyyyyy!

You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time

Seahorse, seahorse, let's barge into Ikea one day..
Get careless whisperer along too.
A threesome outing, though three's a crowd.

~~three's a crowd,~~
~~four's an orgy.~~

2:45 pm

I just woke up.
Feeding myself with 3 curry puff and a glass of soya milk.

Rather groggy due to last night's stay up to DO WORK.
Now i'd have to redo my work 'cos i found out something from CY,
that things would be simpler if i've done the OTHER way.
What i did was much of a manual style, sooo... it won't turn out nice.

Raaar.
And surprisingly i would say, i saw 3 different friends of mine at different parts of the Dover platform while i was heading back home. Cool, isn't it?
The 3 parts of my life too..
One- SP DARCH
Two- BP NPCC
Three- SP NPCC

Sigh. All evolving around ...?
Ranting eh? :D

Oh yes, i even forgot to take my dinner =/
Fed on soya and soya and soya.
Soya milk and mr bean's pancakes.
And then toilet after those. Lol.
Some people know why.

Anyway, life won't be much better without my seahorse and senior.
They allow me to release my crappy hormones, kick off my pressure.
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~~Had a XXXX with XXXXXX! :DDDDD~~
HAPPY.

I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometimes I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall

Thursday, November 08, 2007 7:55 pm

4 months and counting on.

To cry?
To celebrate?

To study.
Soul-less.

One driveway,
one future,
one man,
is all i need.

Not too much,
just that much.

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

3:11 am

TADA.

Amy's satisfied.
Done done done!

With her plans, sections and elevations.
YADAAAAA
That reminded me of naruto,
my secondary four life,
the pursue of passion,
the stylo mailo happenings around me.

The carefree and naive life.

RAAAAAR. Off topic.
Celebrate!
YES DEEPAVALI! WOOHOO.
Happy DEEPAVALI.

One thing to note for all poly students:
MAKE-UP LESSON FOR PUBLIC HOLIDAYYYY.
Z.

Deepavali shall be the day for me to do up my storyboarding,
2 A1 presentation boards which are due on monday submission.
Thennnn, hopefully i will be able to finish my 3D modelling for my floor plans.

Amazingly, transformation of 2D to 3D is gonna be done!
YADAAAA.
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Bmy is guilty of spending time unwisely by making banners for her blog ):
You're just so addictive to me,
that i can't say no.

Wednesday, November 07, 2007 10:07 pm

Sorry and thanks.

We should communicate better in future.
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How i miss those days,
never feel so lonely unlike now.

Whenever i think of him,
you came to my mind.

Virtual world and realistic world.
Big gap.
Yet, with a shared sky.
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Till now,
It's so ambiguous that i can't spot the difference.
The lies and the truth,
that are hidden beneath the carpet.
The unspoken words,
the secrets.

Yeah, so just keep sweeping them under the rug eh?
You made me wanna.
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Oh well, i guess my readers won't know a shit about what i'm driving at, right?
Each part speaks of a different story,
the segments i've been through each day,
with only input of more,
and none gets out.

Troubled.
I should perhaps think less, work more.
Crap.
As if it'd just allow me to work out my life.
Crap.

Turn on the music and get dancing once again.

I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start

1:49 pm

Fossilized body-
prawn.

I'll be waiting for that day.
Just don't you dare mess my place up.
BLAH.

Make it a leap of faith, when you can't make it a leap of love.

Reviewing of history;
way back into love.

Studies or that?
Temptation to help out, yet the consciousness of studies in hand..
Sometimes studies get in my way,
and that i should really get a life.

Bmy misses her friends,
yet she doesn't know how to make the first step..

Monday, November 05, 2007 11:34 pm

One day has passed,
god, i'm still here.

Tonight's an quiet cold night;
accompanied by a lonely me,
memories of the past came slapping on me,
made suchan emotional impact against the present.

Tired? Am i giving up?
I feel lonely tonight,
cuddling in my arms on sucha cold night.
Listen to the breeze tonight,
recall the whispers that were given to me.
How i wish those times could be frozen.

I feel lonely,
i need some heat,
to keep myself warm on suchan emotional night.

Handphone has becoming useless to me.
Perhaps time to throw away..
Help to lessen dad's burden too.
Sigh):

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Those people who know how to see palm reading would say that i've alot of troubles,
that alone would say how many lines my palm holds..
Troubles are awaiting for me to ponder over..
God wants me to wait again..

7:34 pm

I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start

Funny feeling inside my STOMACH.
Argh.
Absurb absurb.

7:22 pm

麦太世界

piggggggg

7:04 pm

麦太世界

Oink!

I've already had this video long time ago, just didn't get to share with you guys.

麦太brought my mum and lil bro "HAPPINESS".

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HIGHtime;

fever hit me.

Slight one i should say.

Just a cold?

Dizziness too.

Just like now, i moved a little to my left, my head 'spinned'.

Certain things still stand uncertain.

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That should not be our friendship.

Just find it so absurd,

i bet we're getting further apart.

And yes, we are.

No doubt.

It's alright.

I shall walk alone.

~~No point telling me you'll be my listener,~~

~~when i don't feel any security/constancy on your side.~~

~~Chances were given, but not cherished.~~

~~So sorry.~~

Sunday, November 04, 2007 7:54 pm

STOP pushing me in between.
Why am i the target?

Bmy's gone into hiding~
Shh.

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And damn it.
Xmas eve's in my house.
Sigh.

Saturday, November 03, 2007 6:51 pm

Just so amazed?

Wow.

And yet, disappointed.
It has already been opened.
It's gone.
Where's the owner?

GoneGoneGoneGoneGone.
youmademegogaga.

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I just hope for the best?
Things get wrong when they should be.
Let's all get united for this time round.

LOALOALOALOALOALOALOALOALOALOA!

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Argh?
We're supposed to do this ES online quiz.
Went to EEC, and brought back a bag of pamphlets.
Then, read through them andddd did some research on some of the questions.
10 questions, 2marks each.
And wth.
12 out of 20. Z.

And glad to have scraped through the e-learning week with some 'profits'?
Kinda satisfied with what i've completed.
Also, the effort put in my submissionsss.

Oh, the grades for the case study and my interim critique for final project are out too.
Hmm, not bad la. No C and below(:
But just some small percentage of year one nia):
Case study is the least percentage lo, think like 5% or so?
Sigh.
The final project constitutes most percentage.

It's over! Yet, not entirely over.
Boo.

RestRestRestRest.

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BMYTHESURVIVOR!

LET'SDOIT.

Friday, November 02, 2007 5:59 pm

Things that needa get off my mind,

are things that are haunting yet unforgettable.

BLAAAAAAH.

Work work work,

the solution.

Chiongster or not,

it all boils down to the root of...

HISTORY.

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As for the skin problem,

i've tried to advise them to a trip down NUH.

Like what you have suggested, go to a specialist.

I was turned down.

Just sit and pass each day like that lo.

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总有一天，我会找到你。
咱们一起加油吧。。。

2:39 am

Alright. CRS done, with five constructive comments, i hope for the group.
That's really like a GP forum for poly students. Z.
Rather cool i feel.

Done with whatever shitty dgn files i needa do. xD
And sorry, mine's not the model work kay.
So, stop those, just because i'm a chiongster?

Hmm.. needa convert to WORD.doc soon.
So, i can have a break.
Somehow i think i've lost some weight,
nah, didn't emo. Like duh.
Just work.

Shall see how bah.
Like the other time, Mr Chieu said i slimmed down on the submission day of primer 2.
Sigh. Perhaps tears could shed off weight 'cos that leads to lost of appetite.

Anyone who is desperate of losing off weight, try that.
Make yourself cry, be emo, lose your appetite.
It's effective.
Guaranteed.
Terms and conditions apply,
Side effects.

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What's an ass without a hole?
Rar. Thanks van, for being my ass. LOL.

Andddd yay,
BPNP gathering! I'd love to.. see them.
From batches: year 2000 to 2003! Woot.
Boo. I want that batch to go too.

1:09 am

Heard from van that XMAS WILL BE AT MY HOUSE?
WTH NO WAY!

Another "high time" of squeezing twenty over people again..
RUMS, ~~VOLKA~~VODKA, SHANTY are in the house soon.
This time round, we can all get into NC 16 movie for once.
Thanks ah, ivan. (Refer to January 2007 post on CNY)

Christmas has been the day i look forward to.
This year too, with no exception though it'll just remind me of you.

Thursday, November 01, 2007 1:58 pm

http://koshiyen.twbbs.org/~ifplab/dl/walktourC.swf

Meaningful clip introduced by JL.
Thanks ah(:

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And please stop saying amy's emo.
She isn't.
She's just quiet.
That's her.

It just so happens that i was really hyper.
And when i aren't, you assume i'm emo.
Z.

We need a rest, don't we?

12:02 am

Damn pain.
In agony..

since long ago?
The helplessness one could get, is when one is in it yet helpless to it..
And it has no cure, just some oilment to lighten one's pain.

It comes and goes, just like the breeze of the wind.
It's just the old people's illness..
My bones..
God knows when it will go off, and back again.
Sigh.

Then again,

I should say, i'm a poisonous person,
with years of medicine applied on my skin.
Yet, still the same.
Having those chemical stuffs on my skin cause side effects too, somehow.

The moment one sees my wrinkled skin,
one goes ewww or whatever.

I still recall of my primary school days..
when my friends called me some awful name..
Just because i look different from everyone..
Even now, people look at me with such a gross expression,
then start questioning me.

I'm not a criminal..

You'll never know how i face each day, with such fate.
But, that's does not really bother me.
Somehow or another, those haunting days would still hurt me.
Yet at the same time, motivated me,
to be different.

Each bottle of moisturizer costs $25.
And along with those small bottles cost like how many bucks.
Imagine i've been living on that for ten odd years?

Yes. It just DOESNT heal/ get better.
It's just back to square me..
Tearing? Yes, i'm tearing not because of what others think of me.
But as a helpless me.

Eating vegetables?
Nah, i don't eat those when i was young.
Till when i went to Daycare Centre, i started to adapt.

They say it must be due to the lack of vegetables (Vitamin B)? Or whatever vitamin i lack of.
Zz. Nonsense?
Even if i eat/ don't, is still the same.

The wrinkled skin i've.

Anyway, this is what i think,
perhaps i'm just naturally borned with such skin.
Just like those teenagers with white hair?
Yea. That's what i assume in my situation.

May God bless me.
'Cos i don't wanna fall ill again..
An intuition that my body is soon gonna be down.
Late nights and high concentration on computer; ELEARNING- the cause of it.